The question I have decided to work with is, “How a suicide mentally impacts teens”. I created this question for my blog because almost three years ago now, one of my friends committed suicide. I wanted to talk about this because what my friend did to himself has had the biggest impact on my life, negatively. Picking this question was easy in the sense that I knew what has affected me the most during my life, but the hard part was figuring out how to talk about it. I have never before talked about this with anyone besides a therapist for a month. I am almost glad I won’t have to talk about my personal experience too much during this blog but, I am sure this will be quite the challenge trying to talk about the subject in general.
It has been close to three years since he did this and still I have not recovered. During that time, I was sad, angry and confused, none of it seemed real. He had done this October 27, 2016, and yet it didn’t really hit me until the summer of 2017, I don’t know why but during that time I wasn’t myself, it was hard for me to get out of bed, to function properly and to focus on anything. My world was changed, even now I can see I am not the same person, I don’t have the same approach to everything I used to, I don’t think the same anymore.
The question is good for me in the sense that I will have to openly talk about this, as I have already written I have only talked about this with a therapist for a month and that was when it had initially happened, which was 2016. I hope that talking about this with some people will help me out, I am still unsure if I will be able to talk about my problem. I know it won’t be easy, it’s hard for me to even think about a lot of the time, which is hard because I think about what happened to him all the time.
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